I often wonder how my life would have been different if I had done anything differently.... Turned a different corner, taken a different route, left one minute later or earlier. I was taught not to be superstitious. I was taught to be a realist. So, I guess ultimately, I am where I would have been. If your life is based on random chance, what kind of life is that anyway?

I know I tried really hard to be a rock star and still do. When I first played out I always thought that there would be a man with a pen in the back of the club saying, “sign here kid,” and I would be transported to some new realm replete with swimming pools, shrimp cocktails and forbidden fruit. Each time, though, life stayed the same.

I guess I believe that fame is illusory. I mean, I bet Bill Cosby watches some Coke commercial and hearkens back to the day that he was the spokesman.

I am an optimist. I do believe that you can improve your life. I believe dreams come true and that happiness is attainable. I’ve always worked hard and anything that I’ve achieved I attribute to that. Still, I’m happy that I decided to go to New Hampshire the weekend I met Stacia. I wonder what would have happened if that hadn’t of happened. I might have been a rock star.
- posted by danvt @ 2:22 PM